Know and Remember

As some of you already know, yesterday I went to the hospital for some minor surgery. Nothing bad, really, and it went very well. I'm sore today and resting, mostly, but what I want to write about is the night before my surgery.

Like most people, I tossed and turned a lot. All I could think about was having to be at the hospital at 5:30 a.m. and what I had to be there for. I'm certainly no pain pansy -- I've had three C-sections and my lower jaw realigned to correct TMJ -- but no one wants to go somewhere and then say, "Okay, I'm here. Go ahead, hurt me." Well, maybe a professional UFC MMA fighter does, but NOT me.  Yes, I was apprehensive ... I don't know how many times I looked at the alarm clock and told myself, "Hey, GO TO SLEEP, Dummy!"   The alarm was set for 4:30 and it was already 1:32.

Then suddenly I saw the familiar light blue fog behind my closed eyelids. As it usually is, it was calming and peaceful and I watched it slowly fill my field of vision completely. The way it gently swirls, I always have a sense of floating. And then I heard Dinahh speaking to me from inside the fog, "Catherine, come with me. I have something to show you."

Like so many other times, he appeared to me as a small orb of bright light. I happily went along with him. We ascended at a 45 degree angle, fast and yet gliding, through millions of other brilliant orbs of light. They were moving fast every which way and I had the oddest sense of knowing them -- all of them -- and they knew me, as well. I felt so free and peaceful, and I was floating -- no, not quite floating, but not flying either -- as we were flitting/floating/soaring higher and higher. This is frustrating. As I've told you before, I don't even own the words to describe most of my experiences with Dinahh, so please bear with me.

The next thing I was aware of was, we were way out in space somewhere and I could see the whole galaxy at the same time. It was awesome, totally awesome. The colors were beautiful, so vivid, and I could see the planets, the stars, the moon -- it was ... truly awesome. But what was truly amazing was how I felt. I felt a crackling, like I was charged with electricity, and I didn't need to breathe because I was the air, itself. I know that doesn't make any sense, but that's how it was. And there is always such a feeling of love and acceptance. It doesn't just touch you, you are one with it and it flows into and through you. When I'm up there, I know beyond all doubt that we are all a part of something so huge, so vast and so full of love that it really IS indescribable.

"Tell them about it, Catherine, Zora. Tell them how it is so they will know. Tell them to remember. Tell them to listen to the whispers.  Tell them to hear us with their hearts."

I went to sleep soon after my experience, but not before I peeked at the clock one last time.  This was strange and mystical -- it was still only 1:32.  Thank you, Dinahh ...
Namaste.
Zora

Awe and Wonder: Life

I don't always write every day, and I know I should -- and when I do write, I have a tendency to talk mostly about experiences I've had or lessons I've learned. I don't share enough about what I feel inside: a tremendous sense of awe and wonder about the incredible journey I'm on -- and with everything in me, I want you to feel the awe and wonder, too.

Life is so sweet, so awesome! We're surrounded by its magic every day, if we'll only sense it and allow it in. We're constantly whispered to, protected by, and helped along by our guidance. There's an incredible energy flowing through you -- sense it, welcome it in -- you can almost feel how powerful you truly are, and how far you can reach.

It's easy to lose sight of these truths, particularly living in a world that wants to insist that we're limited, aging creatures, stuck somewhere between luck and fate. But people, that just isn't so! We do have the power to change things. As long as we remember that our problems don't own us, and as soon as we realize that, the problems lose their control over us and we can move forward again.

At times, I know, life can seem hard. But we make it seem even harder than it actually is by believing everything that we've been taught, by our limited thinking, by having low expectations, and by failing to see ourselves as we really are: infinite beings of light and love, adventurers of life, navigating our way through the paths we've chosen, and just being human -- loving, living, and sharing, with eternity stretched out before us and the power of our thoughts to shape who we are and who we want to become, if we'll only listen to the whispers, our guidance, and believe in the magic around us.

Life really is like a watermelon -- just grab it and take a bite -- savor the awe and wonder!  Taste its sweetness!
Namaste.

Love and Intimacy

Today's Thoughts

The universe seems to have such ornery plans for us. It triflles with our hearts and our souls, never being specific, allowing us to choose our own path, letting us feel every decision we make is the right one, when all there really is, is love. There is no death, only infinity before and after, which is an amazing concept to try and grasp with our minds ... for only our hearts can "see".

What opens hearts to intimacy is sharing vulnerabilities. It's not as hard as you'd think -- if you really love someone. We've all seen the rare couple who has done this over a lifetime and in the process, they've grown old together. Just being near them, we sense an enormous comfort and peace, and the shared love between them radiates. It's beautiful, and very rare. Without this quality of openness and vulnerability, partners never really know each other; they are merely one being living with another being.

When love is accompanied with deep intimacy, it raises us to the highest level of human experience. It is in this space, that we can surrender our egos, become vulnerable and know levels of joy and love unique among all of life's experiences. Boundaries are blurred, with no limitations and we become one and, at the same time, both.

I love this journey I'm on. Just thought I'd share my thoughts today. Let me hear yours ...
Namaste!
CJ

Dinahh and Robert

I know a lot of you are wondering what's new as far as Dinahh is concerned. As a guide, he's still with me, but not from a teaching standpoint right now.

About six weeks ago, Dinahh talked to me about Robert, who nearly twenty years ago, wrote three complete books, but never did anything to try and get them published. Dinahh told me that back then was not the time for them -- people were not ready for the messages they contained. He went on to say that people are ready for them now and that I was to do all I could to help Robert, editing and correcting, even fleshing them out more, and then getting them in the mail to publishers.

I told Dinahh that they were Robert's books -- who the heck was I to "flesh out" someone else's work? He told me that was only a part of our joint purpose here. Dinahh shared with me that Robert and I are of one mind and one heart. We are to work and write together, along with the universe. It's what Robert and I agreed to before coming here. When doing this work, I was to listen to Dinahh's whispers and insights as I did this. So that's what I've been doing for nearly six weeks now.

There's a lot of work that goes into preparing a manuscript! Everything has to be edited and re-edited, spell-checked, double spaced, title pages added, one with name and address and one without, a table of contents, biography, introduction, word count, cover letter, SASE (self-addressed stamped envelope) WHEW ... and there are three books we have to do it with.

I'm happy to report that Dinahh was true to his word. Every step of the way, I could hear his whispers. At times, I had to say out loud, "Slow down, please, Dinahh, you're going too fast." I'm happy to say, the first manuscript was put in the mail to ten well-chosen publishers of New Age books about a week ago.

As of this date, Robert has received a couple of polite, "It's good, but it's not what we're looking for at the present time." Just today, he received a very nice personal letter/thanks but no thanks from a publisher who said he really liked the book! I wish I could say he was going to get a contract from him, but it wasn't what he needed either. But we did send a follow up letter mentioning that maybe one (or both!) of the other manuscripts might be a better fit for what he IS looking for ...

Oh, and Dinahh has also been pushing me to get my own fiction "out there". I have fifteen short stories for a short story collection -- It's almost ready to send out, too. We'll keep you posted ...

Namaste!

Whisper to a Vet

As most of you know, I have another blog which is dedicated to Vietnam Vets. I began Memoirs From Nam in the memory of my first husband, who was a combat medic and killed in action in 1969. What I hoped to accomplish is happening. Veterans are opening up and sharing their experiences.

Robert and I are learning through the many postings on the blog that there is so much buried pain. The biggest portion comes from what these men and women experienced in war, but there's also a great amount of guilt these vets feel. That also causes pain. The guilt stems from losing their friends in battle -- they ask, why them, and not me? What more could I have done?

Still more, the Vietnam Era was unlike any other time in history. Our citizens, our very country, didn't treat these veterans as they deserved to be treated when they returned. That's a lot of pain to be carrying around for such a long time.

Robert had a whisper from his guidance and he left it as a comment on one of the latest postings at Memoirs. It's good and I want to share it here.

Whisper to a Vet:
by Robert Cosmar

In your pain is a great gift of awareness that can lead you past all the pain, the personal judgement, and the criticism that the ego uses to keep us trapped in time, memories and illusions.

It can seem, at times, like we are losing our sanity when the mind realizes it's losing its grip and we're becoming more aware of ourselves. Guilt can be a powerful tool of the ego and mind. It can imprison us in the past and within time.

The goal of life is awareness and the soul uses whatever is needed to bring us back home to our real selves. There is no guilt or blame in the deep core of your nature -- of you or others who have served. Only in the mind, which is programed by religion, cultural values, and philosophies is there a form of self torture that splits you all in two and beats you up.

Beyond the mind is acceptance of yourself and all that you experienced and the one thing you are all seeking: NO BLAME. The pain does not own you. Surrender to who you are and all that you experienced. Realize that this is perfect for the growth and healing your soul is seeking.

Namaste.