Dinahh's Visit

I haven't written much lately, mostly because there hasn't been a whole lot to write about -- and the fact that we've been busy with other things.  I realize that's no excuse for not writing and I apologize.

Robert and I have been flat out for a couple of months now, getting our books in Kindle and Nook and a few other places that take ebooks, and this while we wait for them to be published in print.  Thankfully, that should be within a week or two.

I hadn't heard from Dinahh in awhile and I wondered why ... did I do something to make him go away?  I hoped not, but it really felt weird, after having him visit nearly every day, or night, for months and then suddenly nothing at all.

The last time I had a conversation with Dinahh was when he told me I was to help Robert get his book "out there" because people needed and were ready now to read what he wrote.  Then a day or so later, Dinahh strongly told me I had to do the same with my books -- I had three completely finished and another five or six that I needed to find an illustrator for.  I had been suffering from inertia, I guess ... but anyway, after Dinahh's last visit, Robert and I threw ourselves into high gear ... and high stress.

Last week, my daughter and her husband invited us to spend a few days with them at Martha's Vineyard in Massachusetts. Some summers, they rent a cottage for a week about a half mile's walk from the town of Oak Bluffs and the beaches.  Well, we looked at each other ... and it took all of about two minutes to decide -- Just what the doctor ordered.  Our stress level had peaked and we really needed a vacation.

During the 45 minute ferry ride out to the island, we could feel the tension begin to fade.  It was wonderful. We loved being with Carrie and Paul, and my grandsons, Jack and Tyler.  Robert and I walked, shopped, rented a Jeep for sightseeing, and came home refreshed and ready to finish what we'd started with the books.

Yesterday, Robert and I were done.  Amazing.  I had finally approved the proofs on my three books and they're ready to print and Robert's book is also approved and ready to be printed.  We're relieved and so looking forward to the next phase.

Last night when I was just about to fall asleep, Dinahh visited me.  I asked him where he'd been and why he hadn't talked to me for such a long time.  His reply was simple, "Catherine, there was no need.  You have been doing everything I asked of you, everything that you agreed to do before this lifetime.  You and Robert are fulfilling your purpose, to create together.  This is as it should be."

... I guess he was saying, "If it ain't broke, don't fix it."   Still, it was nice visiting with him again.  I missed that.

Namaste.

Waiting

Waiting! Waiting! Waiting!
by Robert S. Cosmar

It is so frustrating to have to wait. We wait for our dreams to manifest; we wait for a direction to take; we wait for an inspiration to write. It doesn't seem fair to have to wait for everything -- and waiting shows us aspects of ourselves that are not always pretty.

We like the feeling of having control over our lives and having what we want, when we want it.  But if we don't learn patience, the impatience can blossom into a demanding and stubborn state of mind.  Good things do happen when we are ready for them and, when it's time, they manifest effortlessly.  No inner struggle is needed -- it just happens -- and we're grateful for it.

However, the mind and ego are never satisfied. Selfishly oriented, they seek to fulfill themselves immediately and give little consideration to others, their needs, or the wisdom of timing. Part of the problem is this idea of time. Our egos and minds are taught to obsess over time and dwell on it, as if our lives were all about time.

Time is how people conduct the business of living, but time is not living.  Surrender to what is is necessary to overcome the threat of time. Acceptance of what is, is also necessary.  Realizing that everything is happening perfectly, as it should be, is the cure for waiting -- and it's the only cure. The mind and time never give answers, only demands. They are never your best friend in life, but necessary tools to live and maneuver through in our daily living.

There is an old saying that goes, "You will understand in time."  This is only true for those who become aware that everything happens for a reason and when it is supposed to. Nothing happens by chance.  Love is eternally patient, because it knows it will get the desire of its heart eventually.  It may take a thousand years and a multitude of lifetimes, but it will achieve its desire.

Time exists to give the illusion that somehow we have a right, or destiny, to control things and make them happen as we want them to. Nothing can be further from the truth.  Unless you are surrendered and aware, the opportunities and gifts hidden in delays or in waiting are never seen and the heart can be in danger of shutting down.

In the end it is never a matter of getting what we want, when we want it, but rather, what have we become and realized. Are we more aware, or are we more bitter, as a result of our limited ability to have things our way?  Only the heart knows.  What does your heart say to you?

Namaste!