Micah

"At times of writing I never think what I have said before. My aim is not to be consistent with my previous statements on a given question, but to be consistent with truth as it may present itself to me at a given moment. The result has been that I have grown from truth to truth." ~Mahatma Gandhi

I haven't had any whispers or contact with Dinahh for several days now. I've also not been sleeping very well. Robert seems to believe that these two things are connected. He said from time to time, the universe makes little tweaks in our energy fields so we can communicate better with our spirit guides, to receive their whispers even clearer. Whether that's true, or not, I don't really know. I do know, I miss my exchanges with Dinahh.

The funny thing is, the last time I heard anything from Dinahh, was the night before I began my third blog, the Memoirs From Nam blog. Dinahh visited me in the twilight, just before I drifted off to sleep, and introduced me to another spirit guide, a second. This spirit guide was introduced to me as "Micah". Again, I am spelling it the way it sounded to me. The last part of Dinahh's name is always stressed and held longer, so I added another "h" to the end of his name. With Micah, both syllables are about the same length when spoken.

When I have written for the Memoirs blog, it's Micah whose whispers I hear with guidance. This has caused me to believe that I was right when I sensed that I was somehow spiritually guided to begin the blog for Vietnam vets. I further believe that the purpose for it is healing, both for the vets, and surprisingly, for me, since I am a Vietnam widow. If you haven't had a chance to visit the new blog, and you would like to, here is the URL:  Memoirs From Nam

In the interim, before I hear from Dinahh again, I still intend to write about things that I experience. Last night, for example. I had the craziest dream. It was all about water, which is usually related to your emotions or deep feelings.

I was in my car, having just finished an author school visit, and I was on my way home. Suddenly, it was storming wildly and the rain was pouring down in torrents. To my left was a very wide river and, as the rain came down, the river rose up and over the road and became rapids, carrying me and the car with it downriver.

Eventually, the car came to rest along a bank at the foot of a hill which led up to a house. The storm was finally gone, as were the rapids, and the river was again smooth. A kind family came out of their house and invited me inside. As we had dinner, they told me of several problems they were dealing with as a family. Miraculously, I was able to help them with each problem and, as it is with dreams, when it was time to leave, my car was outside in the driveway and I got in and drove away.

I have no ideas right now about what the dream meant ... or if it meant anything. I only know if what Robert said is true, my emotions will go through some sort of turmoil, and end with being helpful to someone. Sounds good in theory ... I'm open to ideas from all.

Namaste!

Unexpectedly Finding Love

Unexpectedly Finding Love
(continued from yesterday)
by Robert Cosmar


When I got Cathy's (CJ) return email about the multi-year reunion, I was both delighted and surprised. I had not seen her in nearly fifty years. My last memory of her was as a young girl of about eleven, sitting in the back seat of my parents car, basically avoiding me. This was the first time I had been that close to a GIRL. I was only nine or so, and I was hypnotized by her deep crystal-blue eyes. I didn't know what love was and I was too young to be aroused by an eleven year old girl, but I was attracted for some reason.

Her email was a confirmation that she liked the way I was addressing people through my emails, with my heart. I felt delighted, because when I contacted her a few years earlier on her website for children, she seemed concerned that I was into astrology and did not approve. This time, it was different. I felt something in her email that touched me, an energy. Was it my imagination or my heart saying I was ready now? I don't know, but as time unfolded and the reunion got closer, the emails got more honest. At first, she didn't want to get closer. For weeks we played email tag and we teased each other about the inexplicable recognition we felt, and being drawn together by something we didn't recognize at that time.

The magic of our relationship lies in the fact that it's been almost effortless. The sharing, the giving and even the love-making are effortless, natural and fulfilling. A flame of love lives in us and we nourish it and encourage it every day. Yes, we have our squabbles and disagreements, but the love is there, always watching, guiding and encouraging us to be even more honest, more vulnerable, and even more giving by sharing the good and the fearful of our individual selves with each other. The love then creates an even higher experience. It's almost like a third party is always with us protecting us from ourselves, our minds, the doubts, fears and even our ignorance.

Cathy and I are NOT spiritual gurus or holier-than-thou people. We're just two average people who have struggled, survived and eventually were "found" by love and given a chance to grow into more of it. This is the message and vision I'm sharing with you in this blog. Love is looking for you and it WILL find you, when you are ready. Love has a vision for you and that vision includes others. Ignorance of love is not your destiny or your heritage. You'll know this when you heed the whispers in your own heart.

Cathy and I talk daily, cuddle, spoon at night, and make love when we feel the need for a deeper sharing. It's very easy to hold her hand, kiss her and show natural affection, both in private and public. Our life together is like a ballet -- an effortless coordination of motion and harmony that creates an atmosphere where balance exists and an almost poetic harmony shields us. We know that LOVE is not just a word or a physical and emotional phenomena. We realize it's a gift, a blessing, and a precious responsibility to be cultivated and shared.

Our story is to inspire and give you hope that the universe is listening. It's calling together all of us who are ready to build a new world from the heart outward. It will happen, as the world awakens to what is real and natural and beneficial.

Spiritual partnership is where the universe is leading us. It's a partnership to re-create the world we live in. Step by step and one by one as we awaken to the love we all are, it will reveal what is true for each of us. No person can give you this, it's buried inside you until you choose to remember it. Until that time, we'll try and fail, stumble and fall, but we're not falling without reason. It's only our ignorance that is being tested and falling, as well as misinformation and programming. It's all the stuff we've been told, sold and forced to accept from childhood. Don't hate the lessons or fear them. In the conflict you'll learn and remember that you do know and understand what has to be done. You are divine spiritual beings having an earthly experience to become AWARE and to REMEMBER all that you are and have been.

I want to reassure you that you're not stumbling around without purpose. The big question is -- are you listening to the whispers? Do you have the courage to change? You'll know when the time is right -- you'll feel it and it'll be filled with love and a partnership with life, not against it, or your true natures.

Robert Cosmar: Whispers of a Vision

I would like to again introduce Robert Cosmar, a gifted astrologer, writer and blogger, who just happens to be someone very special to me. I asked if he would do me the honor of being a guest writer here from time to time -- he's so good at inspiring people. Here are his thoughts ...


Whispers of a Vision
by Robert Cosmar

Cathy and I were talking one morning, well, actually cuddling together on the couch, talking about the vision we have as a couple, and how the whispers we've each had have guided us toward that vision, since we've been together. Little did we know, when we got together, the broad scope of things that would occur as we followed the love within. It was quite a surprise, how we met again after nearly fifty years. Falling in love was certainly not expected by either of us.

I've been alone most of my life, and I suppose in some ways, a womanizer for most of them. I dated and knew a lot of women after my divorce in 1983. At that time, sex and companionship were my only concerns. Over the years I had become jaded. I met so many women who were abused or abusers, who were seeking love but didn't understand it any better than I did. We were all looking for something called love that we couldn't comprehend in our minds, or find in our experiences.

It seemed to me that love was no different than Santa Claus. Christmas loses something magic when you finally learn Santa doesn't exist. Love also means little when your experience has been abuse, control or manipulation. Love was put on the back burner for me and I didn't care if I ever found it. Still, I realized how empty life would be without it as I got older. Like everyone, I hoped and suspected it existed, but I didn't know where to look.

When I was a young man, love and relationships were awkward for me. Like most guys of my generation, our feelings were repressed and channeled into sports, school and work. Little time was spent on feelings and emotions. We were taught to rise above them or to control them. I did this pretty well until 1971, when years of repression and ignoring my feelings came crashing down around me. I had a nervous breakdown and fortunately I also had an experience of the divine through cosmic consciousness.

Living in my mind and ignoring my feelings made it very difficult for me to have a relationship. I did some things as a young man that I regret, they were stupid, but they showed me the error of living the way I had. There are stories like this all over the world. We're taught not to trust ourselves or our feelings and to follow the system. In return, we're given rewards or things for our obedience. We are also given a deepening detachment from our basic life core. The richness of our life force is cut off or short-circuited. We know only what we think about ourselves or judge about life and not about who and what we truly are, or how we are supposed to live in harmony with life and each other supported by a LOVING UNIVERSE.

Maybe you've lived a life of repressed feelings and desire, maybe even suffered as you searched through religion, psychology and philosophy. You may have searched the alleyways of your mind and found only empty promises, delusions and false promises. You may be at a point where you've given up hope that there's an answer. Some of you have maybe taken the dark path of self discovery and delved into the dark taboos of humanity. There's no end to the games the mind can create to divert us from dealing with ourselves. While I've never been one to indulge the various sexual perversions or take drugs to bury my pain, I do understand those who have taken these paths.

Sex is a powerful force in our life and I feel it's a critical element in our physical, emotional and spiritual health. It can stimulate deep feelings, cultivate intimacy, and also, surprisingly, allow us to experience and remember our deeper nature in partnership with another human being who loves us. We all live in this world behind psychological walls that protect us and prevent us from living a full and free life.

Fear is the root cause and condition we find ourselves in as we experience and live life. This wall of fear isolates us, condemns us, and creates a barrier to our deeper selves and each other. Maybe no man is an island, but we're all in a prison on an island, if we're to be honest. We only know through words the greater experiences of life and seldom in daily practice. Mankind has degenerated into a robotic, mind-obsessed state in which feelings are ignored and people are used and taught to be used for gain, pleasure and profit. The spiritual dignity of man has eroded to a place where those who are admired for their virtue are merely actors and real spiritual teaching is hidden from the masses because, to give mankind back their power and dignity, is to lose control over them.

Three years ago, while talking to a friend I hadn't seen in forty years, I heard a whisper as he talked about a multi-class reunion. It was a vision based on a common feelings we all share: a return to the simplicity and innocence of our youth. A return to a time when we hoped and believed in a bright future and we hadn't been jaded yet by a world that lives in lies and can't comprehend the realities of truth and love.

I felt inspired, comforted, and coached for three years and I felt the reunion had to take place. At times, I felt uncomfortable because I knew others should be doing more, but hardly anyone wanted to help build it. In time, I realized it had to be that way, as the universe was directing me to create an atmosphere and environment that would have a maximum impact on everyone that dared to come. One of the first challenges was to create a situation where alcohol was minimized but not prohibited in a dictatorial way. Brotherhood, a common bond, and nostalgic feelings were supported and encouraged.

Each step of the way, as I explored and investigated the possibility of such an event, I was given confirmation that it had to be. I could hear in every voice the desire, but also the dismay that might be encountered from reliving past memories. Even the title of it, MAGIC MOMENTS LAST FOREVER, was avoided at first. I didn't want to appear weird or odd to my old friends -- they already knew I was a little odd in the first place.

Eventually, I realized it had to be, and everything was put together almost effortlessly for those who would be attending. I knew I wasn't doing it for myself, for nostalgia, or to impress anyone. Something had been set into motion and it was bound and meant to happen.

I began to collect names for a mailing list to keep people informed, motivated and excited. It was fun sharing, remembering, and touching base with people I grew up with but never really knew. I found myself sending out heartfelt emails that I knew would touch people deeply. A part of me feared speaking from my heart might destroy the reunion, because some I knew were uncomfortable with such deep feelings. Still, I knew I had to say what I said. People needed a second chance. They needed an opportunity to get it right, to maybe break from the past and its years of wondering and to feel love, maybe for the first and last time.

I am going to stop at this point and take a break. This is going to be a long blog and it does have several parts to it. The title of the next part will be UNEXPECTED VISION OF LOVE.

... to be continued ...

The Mayonnaise Jar

By choosing your thoughts, and by selecting which emotional currents you will release and which you will reinforce, you determine the quality of your Light. You determine the effects that you will have upon others, and the nature those effects will have on the experiences of your life.
~Gary Zukav

When things in your life seem almost too much to handle; when twenty-four hours in a day is not nearly enough; I hope you will remember this story about a simple mayonnaise jar ...

The Mayonnaise Jar

A college professor stood before his philosophy class with some items on a table in front of him. When the class began, wordlessly, he picked up a large empty mayonnaise jar and began to fill it with golf balls. When he had finished, he then asked the students if the jar was full. They all agreed that it was.

The professor then picked up a box of pebbles and he poured all of the pebbles into the jar. He shook the jar lightly. The pebbles rolled into all of the open areas in between the golf balls. He asked the students again if the jar was full. They all agreed, it was.

The professor next picked up a box of sand and slowly poured it into the jar. Of course the sand filtered down and filled up any spaces that were left between everything else. He asked once more if the jar was full. This time, the students responded with an unanimous "Yes."

The professor smiled. Then, he produced two cups of coffee from a shelf under the table in front of him. Without saying a word, he poured the entire contents of the two cups into the jar, effectively filling the mayonnaise jar to the very brim. The students laughed.

"Now," said the professor, as the laughter subsided. "I want you to recognize that this jar represents your life. The golf balls are the important things: God, family, children, health, friends, and your passion. These are all things that, if everything else was lost and only these things remained, your life would still be full. The pebbles are the things that matter to you, like your job, your house, your car. Now, the sand represents everything else, you know, the small stuff."

The professor stood quietly for a few moments, watching the students' faces and allowing the information to sink in. Then he continued, "See, if you were to put the sand into the jar first, there would be no room at all for the pebbles or the golf balls. The same goes for life. If you spend all of your time and energy on the small stuff, you will never have room for the things that are really important. So ... pay attention to the things that are most critical to your happiness:

Be one with your spirituality.
Spend time with your family.
Play with your children.
Take time to get medical checkups.
Call your friends.
Take your partner out to dinner.

There will always be time to clean the house and fix the dripping faucet. Take care of the golf balls first -- those are the things that really matter. Set your priorities. All of the rest is just ... sand."

One of the students raised her hand. She asked the professor what the coffee represented. The professor smiled again. "I'm glad you asked." he answered. "It just goes in there to show you that, no matter how full your life may seem, there's always room for a couple of cups of coffee with a friend."


Namaste!
CJ

Who We Truly Are

You are a bundle of mysteries. Finding and conquering yourself is a lifetime task. There are unplumbed depths in you full of the rich ore of personal discovery. Explore yourself! There is power in you - the power to change yourself and to change the world; the power to create plans, projects, movements for the common good; the power to inspire and serve.
~Wilfred Peterson


Amazing, isn't it, hearing what we are capable of as human beings. Just so we don't forget, I believe we need to be reminded every so often. When we think of ourselves, most of us tend to think we're pretty ordinary individuals. We go about our days doing what's necessary -- raising families, working, running errands, being a taxi service for school and sports and, for the most part, by the end of the day we fall into bed exhausted by just "being".

Dinahh says, "You humans. You make yourselves too busy, so busy that you have no time to remember who you truly are. You are wasting this lifetime. You must make time for what is important. You must take the time to be in your nothingness and ... remember what you are a part of and capable of."

It's true, what Dinahh said. We do need to make time in our busy lives to stop and just "be" in the silence, in our own nothingness, even for a few minutes. For some, it's easiest at night while they're lying in bed, in the quiet place just before drifting off to sleep. For others, it's setting aside an hour during the day for meditation. Where or when isn't important -- what is important is finding our center by taking off all of our various human "hats" of the day.

All we have to do is reclaim ourselves as the spiritual beings we are, capable of great things, magical things, miraculous things! We are all a part of something huge and vast and beautiful -- the universe -- and any time we want to, we can feel its river of energy flowing through us, allowing our minds and our hearts to expand! This is already ours. As Dinahh would say, "What's so wrong with feeling right?"

When we reconnect with our hearts and open them fully to the love we WERE and ARE a part of, we can sense our uniqueness. We can sense how irreplaceable, unrepeatable and just how capable of great things we really are. We are gifted spiritual beings, each unique and precious, and as multi-faceted and rare as a diamond.

When we remember this, there in the silence of our nothingness, we can then see ourselves again as we truly are: spiritual beings joined in love with the universe, and everyone and everything in it, all on our human journey of discovery and awareness.

Namaste!

A Beautiful Video

By choosing your thoughts, and by selecting which emotional currents you will release and which you will reinforce, you determine the quality of your Light. You determine the effects that you will have upon others, and the nature of the experiences of your life.
~ Gary Zukav ~


Someone sent me this beautiful video today over at Facebook. The message within is so timely and full of spiritual meaning that I wanted to share it with you. Make sure your speakers or headset are on -- the music is beautiful, too. Enjoy ...




Namaste!
CJ

After A While

Browsing the dim back corner
Of a musty antique shop
Opened an old book of poetry
Angels flew out from the pages
I caught the whiff of a soul
The ink seemed fresh as today
Was that voices whispering?
The tree of the paper still grows.
~Pixie Foudre


Today, I'm going to post my favorite poem here. I received a whisper this morning that the message in the poem is what people need to read today. I never question when I get a whisper. I've learned that, while the purpose is not always clear to me, there is a reason for it, because it comes from the universe. I merely listen with my heart, trust in its wisdom, and then follow through.

I want to thank my daughter, Bethany, who first gave me this poem. I can't begin to tell you how much it's helped me through some very troubling times in my life. I hope it helps you, as well.


After A While
by Veronica A Shoftstall

After a while you learn
The subtle difference between
Holding a hand and chaining a soul
And you learn that love doesn't mean leaning
And company doesn't always mean security
And loneliness is universal.

And you begin to learn
That kisses aren't contracts
And presents aren't promises
And you begin to accept your defeats
With your head up and your eyes ahead
With the grace of a woman
Not the grief of a child

And you learn
To build all your roads on today
Because tomorrow's ground
Is too uncertain for plans
And futures have a way
Of falling down in mid-flight

After a while you learn
That even sunshine burns
If you get too much
So you plant your own garden
And decorate your own soul
Instead of waiting
For someone to bring you flowers

And you learn
That you really can endure
That you really are strong
And you really do have worth
And you learn and you learn
With every goodbye you learn.


Namaste

A Letter from The Heart

I received the most wonderful letter yesterday from a good friend of mine. It touched me very deeply and I would like to share it with you. I have not included her name, and I have omitted just a couple of things here and there, because I want to protect her privacy.

"Sometimes, Cathy, your writings feel like you are writing directly to me, especially "Questions on Enlightenment, and Guide to Spirit Guides".

I wanted to tell you that I was able to open my heart and have a meaningful "dream". My dream began with me outside in the dark, however, the sky consumed everything and it was full of stars. It didn't seem like there was any one spot without a star. Then, along side me, there was someone in a long white gown. His head and feet were in the dark shadows, so I could not tell if it was male or female. It was not scary at all, but tranquil. The white gown was actually glowing brightly, just like a star. And there was a large gold-ish star which covered most of the front of his gown. I say his, because maybe there is no distinct sex. ??? He kept showing me the star with his hands. You know, gesturing to the star. I just watched. Finally, in a very soft voice, he said, "This is my name, STAR". ((( Ding! )))

So, I hope this is my spirit guide. I have not had any other "dreams". I think, as you say, they only give us as much information as they feel we can handle. And ... So far, I have not been able to clear my mind at night and relax enough to open up to more. Too many things going on during the day right now. But I am hopeful that I can learn more.

I know my spirit guide has been there all along. I could sense it. I think that I was scared that an "ugly" spirit might come to me instead of my spirit quide. So I kept him at bay.

I know that I do not have the intense gift that you have. But I do love to hear all about your conversations and trips with Dinahh. And I want to thank you for helping me get this far.

P.S. I am not good at writing my thoughts or actually telling them either. I hope you can make some sense of all this."

Here is the reply I sent to my friend:

"... it was so exciting to read your message -- thank you so much for writing to tell me. I disagree, my friend, you have a lovely way of writing and you've described your experience perfectly! I'm so happy to hear my blog is touching you -- this is exactly what Dinahh has been hoping for, to reach those who are ready and aware -- and you are!

You have met your spirit guide, Star! I'm thrilled and so excited for you. Now you can begin to work with Star -- you have an agreement with Star, made from before your birth, as to what you will do with him for the good of humanity -- I can't tell you how excited and happy this makes me feel, for you!

Don't worry about being able to relax enough ... that will also come. The hard part is done -- you've met Star! As far as whether you have my "intense gift" ... that isn't true, hun. Everyone has gifts just waiting for them when they become aware, they may only be different for each of us, that's all.

I have a friend that I met through Bob, and she was a channel -- her spirit guide, Neuvelle, actually came through her and she spoke to groups where people would ask him questions. I don't have that kind of gift -- I'm glad, actually.

What I have with Dinahh is wonderful. I'm becoming more and more able to speak to him whenever I need to, even during the day, and that's new. See, like you, I'm newly aware -- shoot, I'm new to most of the things Dinahh has me write about! (smiling)

Welcome spirit guide, Star! We have to keep in touch now more than ever. I do hope you will consider writing for my blog now!! We can relay twice as much information to people who need and want to know, those who have a hunger to hear about awareness and this journey we're all on!

Thank you so much for sharing!
Namaste and love,
Cathy

Guide to Spirit Guides

There are several things I want to cover today about spirit guides, with a little bit of help from mine. His name is Dinahh. Granted, it won't be an "Everything You Ever Wanted to Know Guide to Spirit Guides", but I did promise that I would share the things I learn with you as I travel on my spiritual journey.

After writing yesterday's blog, which was about a vision I had a few nights ago, I realized that I had some questions I wanted to ask Dinahh. These arose from what he told me, after he had me tell him what I thought the vision meant. He told me, [They] want to reach more beings with [their] messages of truth. He sees my purpose here, as I gain awareness, as one of writing about my experiences for others: dreams, visions, whispers, anything that I learn about, I am to write about in this blog to help others on their own journey to awareness. [They] want to reach more souls, address topics of importance and, in time and with Dinahh's help, even answer questions people might have about consciousness.

I spoke with Dinahh today in the quiet and here's how our conversation went:

Me: You've told me that each being here has at least one spirit guide who has been with them from birth -- the whispers we hear come from them as they help and guide us on our journey through our human experience.

Dinahh: Yes, Catherine, this is true. However, humans do not always listen to our whispers, even though they can hear them. They believe them to come from their own thoughts. We must teach them to listen.

Me: You said yesterday that you want to reach more souls and my purpose is to write about my experiences as I become more aware so in that way, you are better able reach and inform them.

Dinahh: Yes, Catherine, Zora. [We] have much to say. As I've said before, the world is changing. More and more people want and need to know how to remember, how to open their hearts, how to hear [our] whispers. They are wanting to know about awareness and they search for love. You will help [us].

Me: I don't mean to be disrespectful, but why can't you just tell the other spirit guides to whisper louder, be more forceful, so people can hear them better -- like you are with me? Sometimes you even shout at me.

Dinahh: Zora, you were a child when [we] first spoke to you. Had [we] done what you are asking, how would that have made you feel, hearing a loud voice shouting? You heard [us] as a child. You have heard [us] all along. You were receptive. [We], through you and others, must help more people to listen, to hear the whispers.

Me: Yeah, yeah, I see what you mean. It would have frightened me had the whispers been loud. You first appeared to me in a dream. Can't you tell the other spirit guides to appear that way to others, in dreams?

Dinahh: Zora, these beings must be aware first and they must be ready to receive the guidance their spirit guide has for them. They must first be receptive to the whispers they are given.

That was the end of the conversation, but I'm sure you have other questions.

Someone asked me the other day, "How did you get a spirit guide? What do I have to do to get one?"

I told her the same thing that I've said a hundred times before, right here in my blog. Before our spirit, our soul, is born, we enter into an agreement with one or more spirit guides who will be with us during our entire human experience.

There are no qualifications for having a spirit guide, absolutely none ... except awareness. Every being here on earth has at least one spirit guide, and so do you.

They are a gift to help guide us on our journey here. They are always here with us. All we have to do is listen to their whispers -- feel and sense them with an open heart. Sometimes they whisper of intuition or precognition. Other times, they whisper an awareness, a remembrance from another plane. Dare to listen. Dare to hear them with your heart.

Namaste!
CJ

A Vision of Souls

The night before last, I had another vision just before drifting off to sleep. The funny thing is, (not ha ha funny -- more like ironic), the last thing I wrote in my status area at facebook before heading off to bed was this saying, "The best thing about sleep is that fleeting moment when you are just between asleep and awake. There, you can talk with the universe. There, you can fly away to the stars. There, anything, everything, is possible. Night night. CJ"

It's true. Within that space between asleep and awake, anything and everything IS possible.

The vision came into my view slowly, like billowy clouds, pushing the blackness aside. But before the blackness was actually gone, I could see dotted within the entire panaramic space, millions of glowing orbs, millions of them, in the blackness. I seemed to be floating and moving along very high above them because they appeared small below and flitting here and there, cavorting like large bumble bees in different directions -- fast, very fast.

Like the other times I've traveled there, I am earthly aware of smoothly, gently floating along, moving as though I am the air itself as I go into another different world somewhere 'out there'. As I float, or fly along, I feel light-hearted and euphoric. (The closest thing I ever felt here on earth to this was when my dentist used to use gas for filling a tooth. He put the mask over my face and told me to breathe deeply in and out and it brought a similar euphoria).

Then there's a feeling of a whole body caress that I always move through and it's then when I become totally and completely surrounded in emotion. There's such an incredible feeling of peace and joy and overwhelming love -- like I am the love, and love is me. It literally surrounds me, envelops me, and flows into and out of me.

The view of the glowing orbs in the darkness slowly drifted away and in it's place, I was looking down at the most beautiful Garden of Eden sort of scenery I have ever seen. The colors were vivid and lovely and I could see the lush green below of a vast meadow with tall grass -- but to my right and below, was a sheer and deep drop off. As far as I could see ahead of me was the stunning beauty to the left, and the straight knife-edge of cliff and its sheer drop off as it stretched into the distance before me. I could see way down into the drop off, because it was bright, like a sunny day. At the very bottom of this deep chasm was a river of some kind, not of sparkling clear water, but a thicker flowing liquid of semi-transparent green.

As I looked down upon this new scene, I suddenly could see faceless people, hundreds of thousands of them, a few at a time, quiet and motionless coming out of the sides of the sheer walls of the cliff and falling down into the flowing green river and it swallowed them. Again, this was happening all along the wall of the cliff below me and out as far ahead as my eyes could see. They didn't seem to be in terror because they weren't screaming -- they weren't making any sound at all. There was only silence as they methodically came out of the wall and fell down, down, down to disappear into the flowing green.

I felt a wave of sadness, and a feeling of regret, as I watched this happen. I tried to see their faces, but there were none, only people, quiet souls, falling into the green river.

I saw Dinahh, my spirit guide, when the scene once again faded to blackness. I asked him to please explain to me what I had seen! What had they done to bring them to such an ending? I told him I had felt sadness and regret and yet I heard nothing, felt no fear coming from them, and I could see no faces. Was this hell?

Dinahh told me, as he had on so many other occasions, "Zora, you ask too many questions. You have all of the answers to your questions there inside of you. Put all of your thoughts aside, close off your mind and open your heart. Be one again with the love, the peace and the joy. Let them flow through you and into you in the quiet, go into your nothingness, and then into your memory. There you will remember. There you will find your answers."

I am still learning and admittedly, at times, frustration is the only emotion I am able to reach. I was unable to regain those feelings after the vision and, after a while, I fell asleep. It wasn't until yesterday afternoon just before Dinahh again came to me, that I was finally able to reconnect with my feelings in the nothingness and be in the quiet.

What I had seen in my vision had been shown to me in symbolism. I had gone to what I am going to call the Plane of Souls. (Dinahh later confirmed this). The faceless people I saw falling out of the walls of the chasm and disappearing into the green river were the souls of people who, at the end of their life on earth (in their earth death), were still asleep in their awareness. This is why I saw no faces. This is why I felt the sadness. The regret I had felt had been for what might have been. The river was only recycling (for lack of a better word) them. The glowing orbs I had seen first in the vision was those people as individual souls again, before returning to earth in their next incarnation. I had remembered this and I was amazed at the clarity in which I could remember.

I relayed all of this to Dinahh when he came to me. He told me my explanation was oversimplified, of course, but I had done well. Yes, this is what I had been shown. This is what I was to remember. Then he told me why I had been shown the vision.

Dinahh: "Zora, Catherine, you have a purpose here. Both you and Robert have a purpose -- together. We (the entire universe) have given you each other in love to take care of your human needs. You have much to do together. You will work with us to write what we will tell you and what we will show you in your spiritual consciousness. Everything is changing -- we must reach more souls on their human plane, teach them to open their hearts, teach them to feel the love, be one with us and to feel our energy flow through them. We must teach them that to BE in their nothingness is to be where they will find their answers. They must learn to hear our whispers. We are here to help. We have always been here for them. We are here. We are here. Zora, you have done well. I will go now."

I thanked Dinahh, once again ...
Namaste
CJ

Two Questions on Enlightenment

Awareness is Truth

Two questions were brought to my attention in a discussion I was having with a well-respected academic, who is also a good friend.

One question was, "Can you search for Spiritual Enlightenment?"

The second question was, "Can one's Spiritual Enlightenment be measured?"

After discussing both questions with Robert and my friend, I went to my spirit guide, Dinahh, to find answers from the universe. The following is what I wrote to my friend within the ongoing discussion.

First let me say I am not an intellectual, nor am I an academic -- I've acquired no degrees, other than those from the school of life with all of its vast experiences.

I've also not spent my life seeking enlightenment. I've not read about it, studied it, or sought out those I felt were capable of guiding and instructing me. However, since childhood, I have had what I call "whispers", those little precognitive or intuitive blasts into my consciousness of "knowing" something was going to happen (without knowing how I knew).

My mother had whispers, and for all I know, her mother before her. My daughters have this ability, as well. Mother always referred to our whispers as being a gift from God, given to us to help others.

It wasn't until April of 2009 that I actually began to learn that I was becoming aware, or for that matter, that there was such a thing as being spiritually aware.

I simply found my life as I had always known it, was changing. I began having more and more whispers, even some about minor things, i.e., a whisper one morning told me to allow more time to get to an appointment, because I had a flat tire. Ultimately, when I went to my car, that proved to be true.

Other changes I noted during this time, had to do with my writing. At times, it was as though someone was writing through me and I had no control over it. My conscious mind was detached and yet the words flowed through my fingers onto the computer screen. There were other things, too, but I won't go into them right now.

Then I met my spirit guide, Dinahh, who first appeared to me three times in dreams as a wrinkled little old man. I learned from Dinahh that I have a purpose in this lifetime. His words to me:

"Catherine, you ask too many questions! You have much to do in this lifetime. You have much to learn. We (Dinahh and the universe) have things we want you to write about. You must share these things with others to help them on their own journey on the human plane to awareness. The world is changing. Others are hungry to know."

I asked Dinahh if one wanted to be spiritually enlightened, where do they begin their search? Some say they don't feel it and though they look, they can't seem to find it. They have no whispers, no feelings of anything spiritual, even though they desperately seek enlightenment.

Dinahh: "You humans ... tell them there is no such thing as searching for enlightenment. It belongs to all, therefore, it IS. It is there for each and every soul. Each soul, upon its birth, is on the same human journey. It is there for them, they need only to be aware of it inside of them. Each soul moves along at its own speed down each path of its choice to learn what it must, but each soul has the very same destination ... that of returning home again. 

Tell them again, there is no search. They must only learn how to become aware of the journey they are already upon. You must tell them to stop. Stop all thought. They must Be in their Nothingness. They must empty their minds of all thought. They must breathe deeply, open their hearts to feel the energy, and accept the love. Only when they do this, can they truly begin to sense their growing awareness. Tell them they must feel each emotion as it comes, and allow it to BE.

If they feel anger, they must allow it, then they can let it go. If they feel sadness, they must allow it. Then they can let it go. Being aware does NOT mean they must always feel joyful. To be human, to be aware, means to feel and welcome every emotion. Emotions are like clouds that cover the sun. Some will bring rain, some will only put us in the dark for awhile, but all will eventually go away and allow the sun to shine once more. 

To be aware means opening your heart to feel all emotions, not just the love and energy flowing through them that flows through all things. Be aware that you are on this human journey. There is no need to search for awareness, only to allow it to BE. It is there for every soul. All are able to remember. All are able to know where they came from and all are able to remember and be aware of who they truly are."

I can only say, based on my own experiences since April, and having further discussed it with Dinahh, we cannot measure enlightenment. Enlightenment is not a tangible which can be measured. 

There is no ladder to spiritual awareness that we climb, rung by rung. With the universe, there is no time -- time is infinite. The universe has no score card, no clock to time us on our journey, and no points added for each step we acquire within an allotted time frame. We are all on our own spiritual journey, each with different paths and lessons, depending on decisions we make along the way.

We are all here for a reason, a distinct purpose: to have a human experience, to gain human knowledge. It was all predetermined before our birth, an agreement between our soul and the universe, and between us and our spirit guide(s), who can and do help us on our journey. There are things each of us must learn, no matter how many lifetimes it takes us, before our soul can again return home.

Time to Remember

You are a miracle. You have something to share that nobody else in the world has. To keep that hidden because of self-defeating ideas, is to die less than you really are. Don’t let that happen. Your greatest responsibility is to become everything that you are, not only for your benefit, but for mine.
~Leo B.


Time to Remember
by CJ Heck

What is the risk
of living in the now
I say none
yesterday
is gone
tomorrow
may never come
but we do
have now
breathe in
breathe out
there's so much
good to be done
today
we have
hearts to open
love and
compassion
to feel
so many gifts
to share
breathe in
breathe out
listen to
the whispers
shhhhh
they're there
if you dare
to hear
with your heart
breathe in
breathe out
it's time
to remember
we have
all of
the answers
they're here
down inside
if we'll only stop
shut down
the mind
and be silent
shhhh
breathe in
breathe out
and listen
with your heart


The universe is full of magical things, patiently waiting for our wits to grow sharper. ~Eden Phillpotts

Enlightenment

Yesterday, I went on a mission, of sorts. As a process of my new awareness and learning, I have been looking for answers about some of the terms I am now hearing about. Yesterday's word: Enlightenment. For those of you, like me, who are learning, I have found ...

Enlightenment can refer to many different ideologies. In a secular, non-Buddhist context, the word enlightenment often means "the full comprehension of a situation."

Spiritual enlightenment, I have learned, means "to obtain a spiritual revelation, or deep insight, into the meaning and purpose of all things; also, to communicate with or understand the mind of God; in addition, to achieve some other type of profound spiritual understanding; or, to achieve a fundamentally changed level of existence, where one's self is experienced as a nonchanging being of pure consciousness".

Furthermore, I read that scientists now believe that during meditative states leading up to the subjective experience of enlightenment, there may be actual physical changes which take place in the brain. I find it totally amazing that even scientists, who are historical skeptics, are now coming around ... amazing.

To those of you more knowledgeable than I, please correct me if I'm wrong, but after my quest yesterday, I've come to believe that enlightenment is a deep acceptance of self, the ability to know who we truly are. It is also the acceptance of all of our feelings, including pain, more totally than ever before. Enlightenment is, therefore, a deep acceptance of ALL that we are -- including those parts of ourselves that we have always considered unacceptable.

Knowing others is wisdom, knowing our self is Enlightenment.

Namaste!
CJ/Zora

Karmic Badges

A few days ago, I ran across an interesting blog. The writer, Lisa Barretta, had written an amazing article about Karmic Badges. She described them as birthmarks and moles that we bring to this life from a previous lifetime.

Since I have a rather large birthmark on my neck, I asked my spirit guide, Dinahh, if he could tell me about it. The very next day, I posted a blog describing an incredible vision I had the night before: (Zora: Friday, July 9, 2010).

The article about Karmic Badges made such an impression on me that I've decided to share it with you today. So, reprinted from Lisa's blog and with her permission ...

Karmic Badges:
Birthmarks, Moles and Phobias
Vivid Life Blog: http://vividlife.me.uk/ultimate/
by Lisa Barretta

Did you know that birthmarks, moles and phobias can hold clues to past life experiences?

Sometimes we carry the physical mark of a past karmic debt or emotional memory into other lifetimes. The energetic or soul memory, encoded into the energy grid of our energetic spirit body, can actually manifest the physical form of the soul memory vibration by leaving a birthmark. The energy molecules take on the shape and form of the vibrational frequency associated with the mortal wound or trauma that the person experienced in another incarnation. Birthmarks and physical deformities are considered karmic badges that give us a clue to our past lives.

The scars of trauma that our soul carries forward from one life to the next manifests as marks on the body and in a subtle way resonate with an encoded cellular memory. It is believed that some who have port-wine birthmarks have often been the victim of a past life fire, while other birthmarks can show where we were wounded. I have a birthmark on my back shoulder blade, representative of where I was stabbed in the back. I past life regression confirmed that I was attacked by a Viking warrior as I sat in the scriptorium of a monastery, copying ancient script by hand during the Dark Ages. That may explain why I hate when anyone stands behind me while I am writing. Listening to recordings of monks chanting always seems familiar and connects me to the memory of the emotional feeling of mysticism.

It is an Oriental belief that certain moles hold past life clues and are also very foretelling of your fate. A mole on the face can mean a happy, cheerful disposition while a mole on the back can mean a life filled with burdens. A mole situated on the tummy area means smooth sailing while a mole on the chest signifies a lot of happiness. Moles on the feet show travel while moles on the hand can pertain to a certain talent. Are moles clues to the karma that we need to rebalance or to the secret fates that await us?

Certain phobias and aversions are also associated with past life soul memory. People who have been hanged or beheaded will often have chronic neck problems or hate anything tight around their neck. Some who have died in childbirth may find that they have difficulty conceiving children or have an aversion to having children. Past life trauma can leave us with fears and phobias like the one I have of large birds. I was beheaded during the 1500s for sorcery and my head was put on a post at the entrance gates to the city and – you guessed it – the birds pecked at my flesh. To this day I fear large birds because the energetic impression is strongly encoded into my soul memory.

Past life readings and regressions are an excellent way to connect, confirm and possibly resolve conflict and trauma from the past. Look to your body for the physical clues pointing to significant past life experiences and also recognize why some unexplained dislike or phobias may have originated many life times ago.

It is very liberating to honor from where we came because it opens the roads for where we are going.

About Lisa:
Lisa Barretta is an artist, psychic reader, and certified Reiki practitioner. After receiving her first set of tarot cards at age of 14, Lisa began studying divination and astrology while honing her own innate psychic skills. Over the past 30 years she has developed her client base strictly by word-of-mouth. Her worldwide list of clients now spans the United States, United Kingdom and the Middle East.

The Street-Smart Psychic’s Guide to Getting a Good Reading (Llewellyn, November 2009) is her first book. Please feel free to check out her website at: http://www.thestreetsmartpsychic.com/

Thank you, Lisa!
Namaste!
CJ

A Message from Neuvelle

... a Universal Being of Light
Reprinted with permission, by Robert Cosmar

Many years ago, I was involved with a woman who was a deep trance channel. She is still a very close friend of mine, and Cathy's, and I would like to share this message from her spiritual guide, Neuvelle. If you don't know what a deep trance channel is, it is a person who allows their body to be a host for a being from another level, or dimension, of consciousness. The host's consciousness swaps with the consciousness of the higher being in the person's body.


Neuvelle:
Evolution is the process that has brought all of you here, here to this physical plane, to experience your evolution in the form of humanness. You are here to undertake the tasks of your lives and to evolve beyond the perceptions that so plague your growth. Your perceptions are part of the evolution you will undertake. Your evolution will become your center of living. You will discover, in your search, the essence of spirituality and this is why we are here.

You are here to reach this understanding with compassion and love. To know that within each and every one of you there is a well of life force bringing you a new beginning, a new energy, a brighter light, for every moment that you are alive on this physical plane.

We are "Neuvelle", and what we have come to bring you is that Love and Light for your process of Evolution, for your process of understanding and, ultimately, the wisdom for your process of acceptance in your own spirituality.

We have come to your plane at a time when your world, your planet, has begun it's most major changes in development towards a higher level of evolution. Many of you, for the first time in your lives, will witness major shifts in the external world powers, while also becoming aware of the changing consciousness currently swelling to great heights. We are here to bring you back to a sense of hope many of you have forgotten, or perhaps have never learned. We have come to show those that are willing to hear, and able to see beyond the confines of their physicalness, a path, a path that is more than just survival, but a path that will grant growth, love, serenity and peace. A path that will ultimately lead you to the way back home.

We have seen many of you, and there are many, that have been comfortably settled into your "New Age" for some time now. Those are waiting and wanting the changes that your thoughts and half-hearted perceptions hold, to manifest in this earth plane. We have seen this. We have felt this. We have questioned many times why you have created this to be. Many of you have carried the belief that a chosen few will be the bearers of the "Light Age" and they will be the ones to lead the way for the remainder of you to follow.

We say to you, those that wait, those that desire, and yes, even to those that are brave and arrogant enough to believe that they, in fact, are the torch bearers, this is not so. This is not the path to home. We say to you, those that are waiting and hanging on for all that we mention to come and present itself, you will be waiting and with much disappointment as others that have learned will pass you by. Others that have loved you and waited for you to grow will leave this earthly plane to experience yet a different level of growth in a different dimension towards home. It is time for you, all of you, to open your eyes. It is time for you, and those still waiting, to open their hearts, for evolution is not waiting for you to claim it, it will claim you.

In this time of evolution, all humans, all hearts, all souls have the opportunity and the Universal right to be stepping one more step closer to the light that brings all of you back to Source, Love and your Universal home. What are you waiting for? Why are you waiting? What is it that keeps you from taking the very first step to an eternal freedom that can never be stripped from you? What we offer you in this time of transition and growth is the love and compassion, the patience and the acceptance in walking the path before you.

We offer to you the gifts of the Universe and the rights that belong with them to be used, and used by you. What we offer are the tools and the knowledge to assist you in not only walking your spiritual path, but in becoming all that each of you are meant to be, beings of Light and Love, Universal Light and Love, all that you are currently becoming, whether you know this or not. Whether you are aware of this or not, you are becoming, and that is why we are here.

Walk with us, once more. You have walked with us in many dreams and in many wishes, take the journey through your growth with us. Let us take hold of the hand of your dreams, the heart of your desires, let us bring you love and show you the way. We are always there for you and when you need us, we will be there.

You need understand but a few things to become powerful in your own right. You need but a few things in your heart that can assist you to create the reality that you truly desire and want. Your growth and your awareness, they are the gateway to serenity and peace. They are the beginning pillars to understanding your spiritual nature and your sense of power. Your awareness and acceptance of responsibility with joy and love will be the magnificent doorway to prosperity and abundance, the remaining pillars of your spiritual foundations and your power.

Let us work with you to help you build and achieve the heights that you so long desire to reach and to touch, in your external world and the worlds that dwell within you. Let us open the doors to the capabilities within your self with your help that will create an energy of fulfillment and joy. You are continually growing and becoming every moment the potential and the reality that you are meant to be.

You have the right through your birth into this physical world to achieve every dream that you have ever held within your being. Together, with your desires, your willingness, your love, with our patience, with our wisdom, with our acceptance, there is nothing that you cannot create.

The choices that you are currently making, the decisions that you are in the process of reaching, those of you that are aware and those of you that are not, these are the essence of what you will draw to you, now and in the future. They are what you have been and what you will be. We have seen all of you in all that you are and it has been a joyous miracle to witness and be a part of. These factors that we speak to you of, these things that we mention here to you, they will allow you to understand the reflective nature that your world and Universe has provided for you. In this wonderous example, you are never alone. You are never without assistance, for in your every moment of living and breathing, hoping and dreaming, we and others are always there. We are always waiting to experience with you all that you are.

In your world, the circle that you have drawn around you, the circle you call "Your Life", it speaks to you. It waits so ever gently for you to answer back. It patiently waits for you to respond to it with Love and Joy. Let us teach you how to answer back. Let us show you how to unlock the power of your being for your growth and happiness. Let us show you the way that brings you closer to the Light That Shines. Come Home With Us.

We Leave You This Light And Trust That You Will Bring This To Your Consciousness. We Bid You Blessing For You And Your Living. We Give You Love And Peace For Your Hearts And Your Life.
Neuvelle.

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Thank you, Alexis. Namaste!
Bob and Cathy