The teacher within

Think of a time in your life when something happened and it seemed your life stood still. Maybe it was a death, a disappointment or a great disillusioning of some kind.  You were devastated inside unable to move mentally or physically and nothing seemed to make sense. It may have lasted for a day or a few weeks, but your identity was crushed and you may have thought at times you would not survive. Awareness is like this, it begins with the world being shattered within you by events you can't control outside you, you feel helpless. It places you on yourself alone and no one else can console or advise you. You are on your own and frightened, maybe you think "I will Lose my mind."

 You probably sought spiritual or psychological advice and it may have helped a little to talk about your feelings, but it did not make the aching go away. Sleepless nights and days of wandering in a depressed fog. Am I going to make it, you ask? Slowly the cloud of pain and despair begin to lift and understanding from within starts to awaken. You are surprised that you know more then you thought you did and a smile appears on your face. Hope begins to return and a joy fullness walks with you. You have left the world of the mind for the first time and you survived. You know that you know for yourself and not anyone else. You are free to learn in your own school within about life and you have your own private tooter now, the teacher within.